i love these girls. i swear.

haha. okay anyway, VARIAN. haha yes hello, hero hero la. hahaha

just got back from compass with nic hetty jem and matthias. had fun, sat around and made fun of each other and other people as usual. hahaha.
ok so math prelims max max i'll score about two! and thats if im lucky. so yes.
haha. shut up shaun chan. haha
anyway my parents left two nights ago! and i miss my mum now. sheesh.
haha so yes, HOUSE IS OPEN, well just until the 21st la.. haha
cant wait for feast day! drinking after that for the juniors, the poor things that cant club(except nic la, of course) hahaha
i predict a fucking awesome night.

i just wish nat could be here for it too. i miss you slutface.

hahaha anyway me and hetty have had fun on the busses to and from school, what with all bus number 80's smelly old men holding up theyre arms for the entire bus to take a big whiff. death by armpit hair. hahahaha ok shut up.
anyway, im done with all this random shit and im going to go play guitar.
bye!

okay NAT. bitch cunt slut bitch whore fuckbag crack manwhore. here's your fucking update, dirt.
haha. i love you.

ok yes, hello! i have a new phone! james khoo peng fei got me a phone!
after choir prac yesterday me and marcus went to eat at compass..talked, spent much deserved best fucking friend quality time together. then james chubbs annabel josh and shaun came too.. went to meet them at kfc and laughed like idiots cause of bel's lame as ass joke. ayam kambing daun. hahahaha.
then we went to sit outside starbucks.. by then it was just me james josh and shau, hetty came to meet me too. james was looking at my phone and asking why i always had such lousy phones.. haha.. then shaun left and it started raining and we moved to outside mos burger. and then josh and james get up to go eat.. so its just me and hetty.. we talk..pantat comes to sit with us for awhile after gettin his camera, so we camwhore! and the camera is fucking awesome la. took many many damn stylo pictures. hahaha.
so we keep talking about stuff.. then they come back and james gives me this plastic bag and i saw the handphone box and i was like.. wtf?! me and hetty were in shock for a damn long time la. haha. he's fucking awesome la. its a grey 6070 and its fucking sleek and sexy, i think la. hahahathank you james,i love it. and i love you.
then kenneth came and we took pictures, talked laughed like idiots and jo came to meet us.. all of us went to eat..came back down... nic came also. haha.okay so all in all, me, james, josh were there for about 9 hours. hahahahaha. basically doing nothing the whole time except sitting talking laughing making fun and smoking. hahahaha. it was awesome n i had alot of fun. everyone left at about 11.30 and thats it!
haha. ive had so much fun these past few days and all im saying is, FINALLY! yes.
ok. goodnight.

i had alot to say.typed it, posted.
i deleted it.
nat, thank you for knocking some sense into me and letting me know that she's really not worth it or my fighting cause it wont ever stop. thank you.

you're the adult right? please, live up to your words.
sure as hell not doing that now.
i cant be bothered anymore.

say what you want, i dont care anymore.
yout temper percedes you. and ive lost all hope of ever changing my mind and believing that maybe i was too harsh.
goodnight.

we never could get drunk enough to forget about him, could we?
haha.
figures.

stick to the decisi0ns you've made and dont drag other people into your problems anymore because of those decisions, you clearly made your choices. and finger pointing doesnt work. your act only works on an audience, and thank good we went through that stage completely.

oo! last few days been spending time with nic and hetty and jo.. very fun. laughing like idiots.. swimming has become out new pasttime i think? haha and studying has become more vital to me for some reason, i dont know why. people who know me knows i dont do studying.. but oh well.. cant help but try to pass my o's la right..

ive realised past mistakes have a way of coming right back to bite you in the ass if you're not careful. and i'm damned happy for that.. trust me. i am happy.

tonight might be going to shine jesus shine with hetty jo nic and i think dhini? but not so sure.. ez link card has no money and who in the world ever used that as a reason not go out ah? haha. i feel like studying too. i want to memorise word for word my lit book. haha

i got new shoes from josh! its green and white and its fucking awesome. although, they are skate shoes la. abit what.. but still..theyre fucking awesome. thank you cho.

yesterday was spent swimming with nic hetty and jo the usual, and daryl came along too! swam, talked.. everyone was emo for awhile.. met kenneth and becca for dinner at gardens and before dinner kenneth made everyone throw all they're problems into his ring and he put it in his pocket and amazingly, by some miracle. we laughed and joked and made so much damn noise people were staring at us. it really did work, and kenneth is a fucking miracle worker. haha.
after that was my house for dvd's! we watched guess who. damn sweet show la. CHEEK FLEECK. but of course, everyone left before 12 for last bus.. haha..

and this morning my brother woke me up to tell me to hide all our dvd's (and fuck, there are shitloads) somewhere the police wont check. i dont even know why.. and im just as curious to know. i just did it.. took me like half an hour just to pack them up. jeez. putting them back better not be my job.

oh, natasha liew hui ling. thank you for calling that day, you made my day and i miss you veh veh much ahhhh. haha. fucking slut faced bitch bag! i'll message you later! haha. dig bum bum.
haha. ok so, im gonna go now. very random entry. goodbye!

And I know the night is fading
And I know the time’s gonna fly
And I’m never gonna tell you everything
I gotta tell you
But I know I’ve got to give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to pain
I know all the rules and then
I know how to break’em
And then I always know the name of the game

But I don’t know how to leave you
And I’ll never let you fall
And I don’t know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all

mix of feelings and emotions..
kinda. haha, im really not sure about it anyway.
burgvfjkwvfwerjk
i wish i'd just make up my damn mind.

handbrand or sugar coated peanuts?

grr. fuck decisions.

i want to say thank you to the ones who care, the ones who dont give up, the ones that worship their god, love they're loves, and respect they're families. i want to say thank you to the ones who sacrifice they're time wholeheartedly, even for things which are not worth it, the ones who love incessantly and boundlessly, the ones who risk they're lives for the ones they love, the ones who risk they're lives for people they dont know, the ones who go through hardship and suffering to reap little benefits, the ones who take bullshit everyday from people they hate just for the sake of peace, the ones who can hold a straight face in the eyes of an enemy, the ones who can sit down and take insults thrown at them, the ones who accept the good and bad in them, the ones who pray for a better day, the ones who have the courage it takes to say no to a fist fight, the ones who think about the ones who dont think about them, the ones who appreciate the ones who do, the ones who sacrifice friendship for family, the ones who make it through the day knowing that there's hope for a better one, the ones who sing in the shower just because. the ones who give all they have to give in order to make as many people as they can happy, the ones who know they've made many mistakes in life. the ones who are always looking for self improvement.
i wanna say thank you to the ones who care.

the hearts that never lean must fall
fall away and fall apart
by our standards this room is getting smaller
and now you just need some trust in her..you tried
and you tried and tried again
with all the hearts broken, tears shed
you couldnt do much better
its not what you needed and i guess its only right to say
we're better off this way
for hearts that never lean must fall
someday, somehow and no matter how careful.
but you just know
somewhere, somehow
the lights are shining bright tonight,
but they're not shining in your eyes this time
they're in mine.

proximity was they're support;
like walls after and earthquake they could fall no further
for they had already fallen on each other.
and for now, you take comfort in the fact
that you've given yourself the privilege, of taking over my mind.
yeah, the hearts that never lean must fall.

just something i wrote just yesterday and today. mixed and jumbled up. i liike.
goodnight!

haha. just got back from jem's place. josh called in the evening to go to jem's place to surprise him cause its his birthday, oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEM. and as you told me, the ones who cared for you and wanted to be with you would be there to share it with you. (but there were people who wanted to be there but couldnt for good reasons though!) yes anyway, met josh and went to his house with pete marcus and ryan.
ahaha! oh i dont like marilyn manson. not one bit. haha.
met jo, kelly and jem this afternoon at gardens to buy fags and go back to my house to pierce jem's eyebrow.. hetty met us at my place..
the piercing went surprisingly good.. haha i have steady hands la i swear. its all in the hands. hahaha piercing went very smooth and came out nicely. he just needs to change to a bigger stud until it heals..
went to school.. ok supposed to.. ended up sitting along clark quay with hetty. singing songs and writing songs and talking.. it was fun.. but we had headaches and were extremely hungry.. went down to compass and met nicole.. talked about alot of shit and had fun too.. kennth came down for awhile.. haha. awesome la.
awesome day. no shit and no problems and this is how it should be.
goodnight.